i'm exploding~ (emo post)

until just now only i know that i can't really control my emotional myself~

just now had a big fight with my family over somethings stupid~

i suddenly exploded and keep shouting at them~

after they all walk away from the fight i still feel damn mad~

and you know what happen?!

i suddenly burst into tears!OMG!!

cry for WHAT?!

just because of this fight?

no~just because i'm too furious so i cry~

i know~it sound scary~

i suddenly though i gone through this feeling before..

when i'm in form 2 i get punish by one teacher over things that i friend did~

i'm so angry with my friend until i burst into tear ~

at that time i also very shock that i cry~

and now i only know that maybe i'm a bit psycho~

a lunatic that can't really control self emotion~ T^T

update blog because of wrong reason~

just like my tittle saying~

i'm updating my blog not because i want,but because of i'm very bored now~

why i'm bored now?

because of some reason,i have to come along with my mom to her office today~

and of cause i have nothing to do at here beside on9~

and i already go to all the web that i usually go and still have lot of time till my mom finish work~

so i decided to update my blog~

ok~stop with the whining!

what i'm going to say that last sunday i went to time square with my gals joely and kahfoon~

at that time they together bought me my belated birthday present~

it was 'revlon colorstay foundation'

i wanted it long ago~

because i want to change from bb cream to full foundation step~

i know,why i don't stick to the easy one and change it to trouble?

well just no reason,i just want to give it a try~

and now what i missing is only conceler,primer and compact powder~

still got anyone want to give me belated birthday present?hahaha^0^

anyway after we go out i went back to joely house because i'm going to sleepover at her house that night~

and of cause before we remove our makeup we must take aLOT of photo~

then at night we went out with jiingel and the geng to yam cha~

=END=

Been so long~

is already been so long from the last time i updated my blog...

i think the last time i updated my blog is b4 i going into NS~

oh~ whatever...i'm updating my blog now rite?

don't really know what to post..so i'm going to post about HARI RAYA~

because i just celebrate it 2 weeks ago...

actually theres nothing to really talk about because every year we doing the same thing..

but this year theres one special things that we do..

my family when to take a family portray on the 1st day of raya~

who does that?din go raya to relative house but go to take photo on 1st day raya~weird~

but is fun thout..feel like a celebrity in that studio~don't know why~haha^0^

ok..that is..until here i'll stop..

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last day before go 2 NS/6h 2nd gathering~

after just come from 6h gathering and busy packing my luggage,

i decide to on9 to update my un-updated before i when to NS~

the gathering is really fun!

we take REALLY many of photo~

will upload it after i come back from NS!haha^^

actually there are nothings to blogs about...

but because i need to express my miss feeling...

so i want to use this chance to said all the things that i'll miss OUT load!

1st,i will miss my bed,

my TV,

my cats,

my computer,

my 'want to slap until how late also can de sleep',

2nd is person,

the most missed person is my two best friend kahfoon,jiaxin,

and my family!!especially my sis...

cause lately we rarely meet up and our girls talk also short~

and the other next people that i will say i miss are none from other TVfXQ!

arh!!!i think them are the person that i will miss the most cause i cant on9 to

see them,to listen their song,to know what are they up to lately(creepy~^^)

anyways~although i keep saying that i will miss this and that...

i also quite excited about NS~hahaha

cause there are still have some things that i excited bout~

like i hope i can lost my weight at NS~(hahahaha^^)

maybe bout 30kg?(wahahahahaha)

and the others is...

i hope TVXQ will be back together on kpop stage right after i come out from NS~

i really hope all the negative things that going on between them or them between SME

can ended when i come out~

hope all of them can be as happy, as before

and their will be close just like it used to be~

HOPE ALL MY WISH CAN BE TRUE!

Mini muffin !!love it!

just now,

when my mom just came back from work,

she brought back a box of mini muffin!

the second she told me bout the muffin i immediately go find a camera to take picture!

but sadly my sis take away the only camera at our home...

so i have to use my phone and take picture,then send it to my mom phone~

(my phone usb don't know go where,so can't put picture in computer~

so have to use my mom phone to put in the picture in computer~)

here some of the picture~




this my favorite one!


there are bout 9 muffin~

so my mom say each person get to eat 3 musffin~

although 3 look like very few...

but because of the cream on the top...

it was enough to make u feel very full!

i was a desert lover,

so of cause i'll stupid enough to ate them all in 10 minutes!

at 1st i didn't felt anythings...but bout after drink water,

i really felt sick~

Felt want to vomit!

and my teeth are hurt to cause of the sweet cream at the muffin top~

so after this i learn that,u can't ate your desert to fast~

cause it either make u sugar high or make u felt want to vomit!

hahahaha!!^^

*END*

Flash back~

because of my very boring blog by just looking at it~

if anyone that can read,they will notice that this blog is just posting things bout kpop~

so,by proof to my self that actually i also have a life~

i decide to post some personal staff like what have happen to my life recently~

so lets start the flash back~

'14 FEB 2010 lunar New Year 1st day~'

early on the day of cause we wake up and start to dressing up 4 the new year~

then received 'ang pao' from our elders...(din take any photo,so no photo ne~)

after the 'ang pao section' every year my family have our own traditional...

and the traditional is 'family photo section'~

here some photo~








after the 'family photo section' we all go to other relative house 'bai nian'~

after 'bai nian' we when back to grandparent home and eat diner~

every year our 1st day of lunar new year diner always will be 'stembot'~

but this the elders decide to do buffet because of my grandma health~

she say she not capable to prepare stembot 4 us already~

after eat diner we play some poker~

and hallo~i don't like to bet~so of cause there are no money while we playing poker~haha^^

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Arh!!!!CN Blue!!!

Lately i discover a new korean boy group~

they call CN Blue~

CN stand for Code Name and Blue is stand for their each member personality~

B-burning,L-lovely,U-untouchable and E-emotional~

they are nothings like the other korean boy group that exist in korea now~

they are a indie band~

they play instrument~

but still they have the idol look~and ofcuz that means they are HANDSOME!

here some of their picture~


this is their leader junghwa, and also a vocalist,guitarist,rapper~


next is hotie joonghyun!he in charge of vocalist and guitarist in the band~


then is the group's cutie~he is not the youngest but he is so cute!his position is drummer~


lastly is the youngest one and the tallest one!recently i start to have a feel to him.i think cause in some ways he have some similar with Changmin~he is tall,he is the makne,he is the most quiet in the group~haha^^he play the bass and a rapper in this band~


Love ThEM sO MUCH!

'always keep in faith'? TT

"juz went to c tvxq perform and pic...the 3 of them juz come back fr Australia and
changmin still at Australia cz still have sceen tat havent take yet....yunho at korea visiting his grandmother..."

if anybody like my sis or my frenz seen wat i write juz nw they sure will think tat wat a

funny girl..still havent stop bout tvxq!ya!i oso think like tat to

myself!i din like everybody juz get enough bout tvxq!y i still like them!c wat they hv done

to u!u hv surfer enough!i cant even talk bout tvxq to a person cz when i start talk bout

them i feel like cryng...i really cant understand them!y they hv to do tis!y is d benefit?keep

hurting ur fans!lossing lot of fans?!is tis are the benefit?i really sick of this!y they dont

juz stop?!all tis year they work so hard 4 wat?all tis year they stay together 4 wat?!if they

juz wan keep staying like tis den wat they have done 4 all tis year is juz a joke!is juz a

waste!is juz a nothings...

i really wish i can talk to yuchun,jaejong and junsu...i want ti ask them y they hv to sue

SM!i noe they live very hard in SM!but still sM is d place tat make u a superstar nw!i

want ask them tat when they are suing sm...wat are they think bout the 2?dosent they talk

to the 2?i really cant understand them!haiz...i keep bebleling at here oso no use!wat i can

do is...juz wait!wait until all tis stop or juz wait until there are more important thing tat i

hv to do and juz 4get bout them!

but until now i'll stay 'keep in faith' to they all!to yunho,to jaejoong,to yuchun,to junsu,to

changmin and to TVXQ!